I know we all have those days. I've been having a few lately, and yesterday was a doozy. Do people still say doozy? I guess so since I just did. I read the suggestion that when you are having one of those days, and your thoughts are your own worst enemy, you should be prepared and have a list of things to take a break and think about that will help snap you out of it. After I read that, I prepared my obligatory list: my husband, my kids, the dogs, pizza, my pillow...then I was in such a bad mood, I couldn't think of anything else to put on the list. That made me get even more upset and mad at my self. How could I not think of good things to put on a list to cheer myself up? What kind of person am I? I wandered around the house in a snit criticizing myself. The more I wanted to snap out of it, the more upset I got. I finally gave up, went to bed, and lay there thinking even more critical thoughts.
This morning I woke up vowing to put it behind me. I needed to edit some photos and for some reason started going through the old photos on the computer. I immediately started criticizing myself again. I really need to move the photos onto storage; there are just too many of them taking up room on the computer, and I keep just putting it off. The voice in my head started nagging reminding me of all the other chores I've been putting off. Then I opened this picture and just stopped.
It's a picture up through the trees in our backyard of the full moon through a layer of fog. It was so purely black and white, it looked like something out of an old movie. Looking up through those trees was like being somewhere else for a few minutes. Finding this today when I needed it was a chance to be looking up again for a few minutes, remembering that cold night and the full moon in the sky. Now I have something else to add to my list.